I am similar to this in that I don’t normally feel I have to worry about making a higher power approve of me – because that’s a given. But I like the possibility of having a relationship with it. It loves me? Maybe sometimes I want to chat, or say I’m grateful, or rant at someone who cares about what a shitty day I’ve had and sometimes get good advice back. So Christianity is still pretty value-added for me in that respect.